MAMA, Even Only That Word
by Remedios Dorio
The shadow of you,
Keep lingering on me.
Wherever I am,
It always follows me.
So much I hated,
For it’s destroying me.
Opinions of people,
Cared my hatred to you,
You’re my mother I hate you!
Away from us you ran,
As a child then I grew,
Always with a thought that you,
Never had loved and cared.
Yet still I’d yearned for you,
Kept asking myself why,
You did not give me a chance,
To grow liked other children,
With guiding mother on their side.
Then you come back,
Claiming me your child,
Cruelly I said to you,
You never were my mother,
Nor I had a mother liked you.
I saw sorrows and sadness,
Tears fells from your eyes,
It did not bother me,
Cause I hate you.
I stumbled on your diary,
Horrified what you’d written,
I was shocked and frightened,
I hardly believe it’s true.
Now I understood well,
Your pains and agonies,
They forced you to leave me.
I pity and regretted but too late,
For you’re gone already.
The whippings of miseries,
They had done to you,
It’s hurting I am the same,
We were not so kind to you.
Why I don’t have the power,
To see and understand,
Why I did not realize,
What happiness it will be to you,
MAMA, to hear from me even that word.
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